2008 will be end...2009 is coming!

Today is the 30th December of 2008..
long time didnt blog already..
and now sometimes i so bored..
and sometimes i felt bored until dunno what to do..
just sit at home doing nonsense..
wahahaha!!
i will be crazy continuing my life like this..
if u are me..dont u will being crazy?!

erm..
today PMR results come out..
some of them will felt happy..
some of them will felt sad..
it's the time to show how many effort had they put on their PMR..
peoples who put more efforts will get better results..
and..
today i remember the moment i get my results..
i was sad that time..
i so sad but i no cry at all..
my result is quite bad i think..
i blame myself for no put too much effort on it..
why am i not so concentrate on it that time?
maybe cause of that guy..
that time i so careless..
making wrong decision..
no put whole effort on it..
why am i so stupid that time?!
what am i doing that moment?!
all that are my fault...is it?!
now..
that feel come back again..
i thought my SPM result will be bad too..
i so scare now..
sometimes i even think that until i wanna cry..
march..
time passes soon..
march will be coming soon..
i so scare for the day when my result out..
i felt regret now already..
i even thinking that i would cry that moment..
or..
my tears will automatically come out?
just know that i will cry..
hehe

erm..
this time i quite lazy to blog..
as..
that day i fall sick..
i get fever..
but didnt take medicine..
hehe..
at last i take then be better soon..
now i am well..
haha!
then i am not at my home now..
so....

haiz..
sometimes i felt hate to blog too..
today i go see others blog..
see that their blog got so many comment..
but mine one NO!
reallt OMG!
no comment make me no effort to continue writing my blog..
really one..
like no people come support lo..
haiz..

i dunno what am i going to write about again..
just end here..

又要病了...

今天是冬至。。
早上大约十点。。
我睡醒后。。
就吃了汤圆。。
很好吃的哦！
接着我就去房间躺一下。。
结果就睡到一点多。。
睡醒后我没吃午餐。。
哪里知道。。
肚子很痛。。
头还有点痛。。
然后又再去睡。。
睡到三点多。。
被在玩电脑的弟弟吵醒。。
站着时。。
好像晕晕酱的。。
走路也是晕晕的。。
躺下来头还是痛。。
一直到现在。。
都还没有好。。
刚才好像发烧了。。
可是现在又没了。。
只是全身很酸痛。。
最痛的还是头。。
我还是去睡好了。。
可能我又会睡不着。。
因为今天睡太多了。。
不能了。。
还是很痛。。
所以。。
晚安！
掰！

超级无聊的一天

很闷啊!
超无聊的一天!
我的天啊!
今天做么酱闷的?!
早上九点半酱我就醒了...
然后就像游魂酱走来走去...
都不知道在做什么!
然后就坐在电脑前面..
对着电脑发呆..
原来电脑是那么闷滴..
发呆到六点..
我去小睡..
结果睡到九点..
然后吃晚餐..
过后又在发呆了..
不懂为什么..
今天特别闷的!
现在才十一点..
我还睡不着滴..
刚才睡太多了..
此时真的很闷!
有人陪我聊吗?!
今天我连看戏都没心情..
都不懂怎样的..
我现在要疯了啦!

说是说睡不着..
其实是骗人的..
唉..
你是在做什么的?!
那样的生活..
我还有点习惯了..
最近你好像一直都消失..
对你有一种很想念的感觉..

妈妈不在家的日子

什么？
刚才我妹跟我说。。
“妈咪他们17号就回来了啊！”
那天我明明听他们说19号回的嘛！
又讲去10天的。。
原来是骗人的啊？
唉。。

其实她回来没什么不好。。
这几天。。
唉。。
她真的把我当成是废人。。
所有煮的吃的都只跟我妹说。。
我完全不知道。。
然后我那个妹妹气死人的！
煎hotdog就煎到黑黑的。。
切姜也切到大大片的。。
煎蛋又跟我说不会翻。。
今天。。
她煎鱼煎到统统都粘着锅底的。。
过后她又弄热那些鱼。。
刚才我吃的鱼全身油油的。。
吃了都想吐。。

我又不能讲她太多。。
那天她还好意思讲我。。
“你做么酱自私的？！”
我的天！
今天我不懂做么想要骂她！
可是我没有骂到。。
只是大大力的关冰橱的门罢了！
下午。。
我有点饿嘛。。
不是问她有什么吃咯。。
结果她应我。。“呐。。里面有鸡蛋。。辣椒酱。。拿来吃啦！”
当时不懂做么我很气！
就“砰”一声把冰橱关了。。

但是妈咪要是回来。。
我又要开始被骂了啦！
这几天我的爸爸都没有骂到我半句咧！
她一回来我就惨了！
又要开始流泪了。。
我的眼泪。。。。。。。

最近不懂做么。。
越来越闷了。。
最近又迟醒了。。
明明是早醒的。。
然后要多睡一下。。
结果多睡了几个小时。。
真的很闷的啊！
睡醒了就不懂要做么叻。。
还不是一样咯。。
电脑电脑～～～
嘻嘻！
呃。。
我不懂要写什么东东了。。
这几天在追戏。。
然后就很忙。。
咔咔！

晚安咯！muack!

讨厌停电啦！

乌龟王八蛋！！
做么一直停电的？！
前天四点到五点。。
昨天九点多到十点多！
今天九点到十点啊！

我刚刚无聊过度！
在那边乱乱拍照。。
哈哈～
停电还自拍咧！
嘻嘻～




















呵呵。。
我很无聊的。。
一有电就快快edit一下。。
然后丢上来了。。

还有还有。。
刚才厚。。
我爸点蜡烛乜！
然后就变成我的作品了。。
咔咔！
第一次做酱的东西。。




















嘻嘻～
算了。。

希望不要再没有电了。。
真的很闷的啊！！！

对不起

今天我不懂我是怎样了。。
我觉得我欠你一句sorry。。
我不应该这样的。。
可是。。
我真的很sad。。
连续两个晚上。。
都是我要关电脑的时候。。
第一天是我妈。。
那天你走过后。。
她关了窗。。
然后就偷偷走下来。。
我准备关电脑去睡了的。。
结果被她讲了几句。。
其实是没有什么的。。
可是。。
她说。。
她竟然说我是废人！
我真的酱废咩？！
我是不是很废？！
那天我又哭了。。
就因为那两个字。。
我在床上翻来翻去。。
一直到一点我都还没有睡。。
眼泪一直流流流。。。

第二天醒来。。
我不去想它。。
我以为就会没事了。。
结果。。
将近十二点。。
那几个不懂再吵什么。。
我爸爸出来骂他们。。
然后就射到我这里来。。
他讲的东西还是一样的。。
他没有讲我是废人。。
可是。。
我的眼泪比前一天的还要厉害。。
十二点。。
我在房间里面哭哭哭。。
我不想哭的。。
可是眼泪拼命流。。
我还能怎样？！
要找人聊天。。
又找不到。。
找到一个朋友。。
她聊两句就要跟我说掰掰。。
那时我又想起“废人”这两个字。。
我真的不懂要怎样。。
想要找人聊天就对了。。。
可是酱夜了。。
哪里还有人会陪我？！
我不是一直想东想西咯！
想到两点我都还没有睡。。
眼睛还开着。。
人还很精神。。
然后不懂怎样就睡去了。。

一直到今天早上。。
我睁开眼睛的时候。。
那时才七点罢了。。
我不懂怎样好。。
打算睡多一下。。
一下罢了我就要醒来。。
不然他们又讲我每天睡到迟迟。。
晚上又玩到夜夜。。
还有跟你谈天谈到很夜。。
哪里知道。。
还是迟了。。
今天我是点半才睡醒。。
我一睡醒就不懂做么。。
很习惯的。。
我就会开电脑。。
然后就这样。。
他们就会讲我一整天只会对着电脑。。
除了对着电脑我真的不懂要怎样了。。
我看戏也是用电脑看的嘛！
跟他们整天对着电视机的又分别咩？！
以前没有电脑的时候。。
就讲我每天对着电视机!
现在又讲我每天对电脑！
我真的真的真的不懂要怎样啦！
我不想再写下去了。。
不然我又要掉泪了。。

你说你昨天有来。。
我真的不知道。。
今天这样对你。。
我真的很sorry。。
but我懂你不会怪我。。
你叫我不要跟你say sorry。。
可是我不能。。
你怎样了？
你的胃。。ok吗？
一整晚下雨。。
我就知道你又不会出现了。。
我想了很久。。
要不要写这篇东西好。。
at last。。
我还是写了。。

i need u 2 console me..
but..
when i need u..
u r always not bside me..
it's hard to find u..
i wan 2 tell u all tat at tat moment..
but i cant..
n after tat time..
i dun like to tell anyone again about the story..
cause everytime i remember it..
i wanna cry again..
so sorry...

the end 4 2day..
if not later he gonna scold me somemore..

To my dad..

erm..
actually that's nice after SPM..
but..
i felt more sad and sad..
today is just the 2nd day..
i already get scold for 2 days ler..
how come?!
that my dad just only say that i just know to play computer whole day..
play until lately then sleep..
wake up then continue play..
after play then eat..
after eat then play..
then eat then play..
after that sleep...
my life after SPM..
that's my interest..
i love to play the software software..
haiz..
tell you you also dont know!!
i watch that dramas and movies that i didnt watch before cause i need to exam..
i listens all songs i dl since these few months..
i wanna online to know how to do this and that..
i wanna learn to edit photos..
learn to design this blog..
learn to edit movies..
and so on..
all that computer can do..
i wanna do it all if i can!!
i sit here whole day..
but i do different things..
and for you..
all are the same!
you make my online times very limited..
you say that if it's over...
i had to pay myself..
it's ok..
i no need pay..
then let it cancel off..
then you need to pay more cause havent enough one year..
you say you want cancel if it's really over..
that day also over already..
why you not yet cancel?!
if you really cancel..
i still can go outside one..
that time..
you need to give me money also!
i will become more treachery!!
can you STOP??!!
i hate you if you always like that..
all nonsense!!
i dont want hear that all!!
DAMN!

SPM ending...

my SPM ending edi!
hooray!
wakaka^^
quite nice de..
after the BC paper..
i relax more..
hehe~
but..
today is the first day for my holiday nia..
i feel so bored edi!
OMG!
nothing to do for the whole day..

yesterday..
after exam..
i go to sitiawan with my granma and my sis and bro too..
quite sien de..
after exam..
do what also sien de..
haiz..

today..
i had tidy up my room..
clear all the books away!
haha!!
no more books!!!
damn nice!

just boring..
boring until dont know what to blog..
haiz..

SPM ending soon...

damn bored now!
i got nothing to do..
want eat but nothing to eat..
haiz..
want to revise but always cant..
i had opened my bio's book since i wake up..
but..
i still cant study..
arrggghhhh!!!
how come i become so lazy?!
just left 3 days to go..
after these days..
i will be free and will be more boring that time..
but..
dont know why..
i suddenly dont want that day come soon..
i havent decide to do anything after this exam..
i dont want always sit at home..
and waiting for eat..sleep..and play...
these make me wanna die quickly..
i dont want such a life like this..
but..
i really dont know what to do..
most of them are going for works..
some of them will going to enjoy their holidays....
what can i do??
i felt so sleepy everyday..
now i can know what will be my life after my SPM..
everyday i go to bed very late..
then i wake up late also..
my breakfast is same as my lunch..
then i will just sit in front my pc and go chatting at forum..
checking fs..and sometimes facebook..
blogging..
go view others' blog..
go to learn about photoshop..
learn to do this do that..
just all about computer....
that's what i like..
and i know that..
my parent will going to scold me if i do that everyday..
i am such a useless human being in this world..
i do nothing everyday..
just waste time..
waste money..
and waste my energy..
haiz..
i really dont know what to do..
i cant do my revision for bio now..
cause i will only feel sleepy..
but..
i no have any choice now..
just have to finish this SPM...

the end for today..

SORRY~

did you feel that..
we are more close..
but we are less topic to chat about..
i know you also will feel like that..
i also dont know what happen now..
today..you tell me your feelings..
sometimes i really felt sorry to you..
i wanna say say sorry to you..
but you ask me dont to do that every time..
i know you are coming to view what i'm writing about..
i know you care on me now..
today i'm not in the mood..
after you tell me you are sad..
my mood turn bad to worse..
even i can feel that i'm more sad than you..
when you tell me not to be so sad..
i wanna ask you no be sad at that time..
and..
i tell you so many times today..
not to be sad..
and..
please remember what you had promise me..

next week will be coming..
hahaha!!
that too nice!
that's means my SPM will be finish!!
but...
still have to suffer for 3 days..
haiz..
first one is biology..
damn bio!
i hate bio!
i am not interest to bio!
second one is physics..
this subject..
i had put the most effort in the subject of that 3 science subjects..
last paper was Bahasa Cina..
i'm chinese..
i should take chinese..
if i didnt take BC..
i am very sorry to my parent..granparent..and even my ancestors..
but..
BC is too hard..
haiz..

i scare now..
scare that the day which my results come out that time..
i think i will cry that day..
i can even imaging now on my results..
i'm sure my results will very bad..
sorry dad and mum..
sorry for i never put my whole effort on this important exam..
sorry..
sorry..
and SORRY..

in this post..
i say sorry so many times..
i felt i'm useless now..
i just know to sit in front the pc and type and type and type..
cant do any others thing too..
i felt so regret now..
i dont know what to do now..
just stop now..
END~

to my dear..

ĤąΡρ¥ вįŖţđăγ

you are quite kesian..
haha^^
birthday during exam..
whatever..
still must happy for your birthday..
this was my third post to say happy birthday to you ler..
but..
haiz...
dont know what ler..
no have points to write too much for you..
hehe~

add something more..
you ar..
dont know why de..
always like that one!
dota dota and dota!!!
AARRRGGGGHHHHH!!!!
hate it la!


last wishes to you..
must happy always ya!
i love you~
muack~